Recognize your demons & slay them!
Transitions times in our lives bring out all kinds of out of the ordinary responses in our souls. When your “normal” is disrupted and a new “normal” needs to be established, it’s uncomfortable and your flesh responds in many ways that are totally unreliable! Don’t trust your emotions that change like hurricane winds, blowing at full speed one way and then turning on a dime and blowing at a ghastly force the other.
Times of change are great at bringing out humility as you see your weaknesses come to the surface. The person who looks and feels like they have it all together has more times of losing it, or of being a fiercely tossing wave when normally they are like a calm surface of the water. You get angry. you get sad. You feel euphoria. You feel depression. You call out to the Lord with greater frequency because your understanding is piqued that in your weakness you need Him to be strong.
I have been fighting this battle since we moved onto our property. My body is exhausted and I’m thrilled at what God has done in bringing us here! I’m excited beyond words at what is to come and at the same time I get extremely sad and unsure of even the simplest things that I need to or want to do. The last couple days I battled a certain paralyzing phenomenon. I wanted to be left alone and yet I was lonely. I didn’t want to be pushed to accomplish tasks and yet I feel lost at having no things to accomplish. I didn’t know if I wanted to “go” or to “stay”. It was tormentous. So I got up and got a list together and got my butt in the car and went did some things! I needed to recognize the demons that come out of me at times like this. I’ve seen them before and I needed to take action to make them stop their torment which was simple enough, but a battle to do.
The important thing to do is to see the things that rise in your soul, recognizing the good versus the bad and try to walk forward and not listen to your conflicting thoughts. Right now you don’t know what you want, really. So instead of thinking so much about it, get up and get something done! You’ll feel so much better :)